The curse of the idol

 Dear Reader, I am a fool. That might be nothing new to you, since it seems like many people are that way. I am also stupid for challenging my foolishness. This too is not a novelty. My case is not unique either (at least that's what I like to think), however I have neither the company nor the confidence to discuss this matter in my real life. So I have decided to resort to the internet to solve it. My problem? I call it the curse of the idol. While nowadays I'd like to fashion myself as a person who respects the religions, traditions and greatness of God (however you want to call him: Zeus, Brahma, Allah, Heaven, etc.), I fear however this might have not always been the case. It might have happened when I was younger or - like it is believed in Traditional Chinese Medicine regarding the appearance of disease - maybe a couple of life times ago, but it seems to me that my souls prior impiety has angered an angle or lesser being to the point that it cursed me. This is the aforem...